It Starts Here

Song: Kanye West - I wonder

First blog - I’m not sure how this will turn out, but I hope you’ll enjoy what I’m about to share.

I want to tell you more about this website - how I decided to create it, how the whole process went, what its purpose is, and so on. It’s important for me to share this because this isn’t just another idea - it’s my world, a space where I’ve put a part of myself and that I love.

The whole idea for this website came from my diaries. I’ve had them since I was little, although over time I had put them aside. After a difficult period, when I was tired of the pain, the intrusive thoughts, and everything I was doing to hurt myself, I decided it was time to do something for me. I bought a journal and decided that this would be the year I would focus on myself - the year I needed to pull myself out of all the mud I had sunk into.

A year later, there was progress. The negative voices in my head quieted down. I threw away everything I had been using to hurt myself and started finding my way back to who I really am. I began to love myself. But no one had prepared me for the feeling of guilt that comes when you start respecting yourself more - for all those moments when you ask yourself, “Why did I even do that to myself?”

The diary was my salvation. I see it as a friend who will listen to you endlessly, who lets you share your darkest thoughts, your heaviest moments, and keeps them secret without ever judging you.

The process of creating this website was…quite interesting. I did everything myself - from the idea to the final result - and even though I had zero experience in this field, I managed to bring my vision to life. I wanted the site to be easy to navigate, and maybe it turned out quite simple. Still, I knew I didn’t want just a website - I wanted a space where I could be as authentic as possible, my little world with its own energy. I wanted it to be like a portal - something that grabs you with its energy from the first moment.

I have many more ideas for developing this site, and over time I’ll surprise you with new things here. I want this space to constantly grow and evolve with me – with us.

I also want to clarify something: please don’t see me as another “guru” telling you how to live your life and what’s right or wrong. I’m not here to say how life should be lived – I’m just sharing my thoughts and feelings as they are, not as truths about life, but as a space where you might find something meaningful for yourself. You decide what’s for you and what’s not; I’m simply sharing.

Just as I share my thoughts here, I believe that sometimes you might need to share yours with someone. Everyone has moments when they just want to be heard or to ask for advice. That’s why I created an email where you can write to me if you feel the need. You’ll find it in the “You are not alone” section, along with a short note from me.

Of course, you can also write to the email about other things – for example, a topic that interests you. I would be happy to connect with you!

Above all, I hope that the things I share here will calm your mind and heart, inspire you, motivate you, and bring a little joy.

With love,

Chrissy