Being a Girlblogger

Song: Lana Del Rey - Chemtrails Over The Country Club

In this blog, I want to share what it really feels like to be a girlblogger. My thoughts on blogging, how things actually work behind the scenes, and both the beautiful parts and the hardships I personally go through along the way.

If you’ve read my first blog “It Starts Here,” you know that this website is not just a website for me. It is my freedom to be my deepest and most real self. And yes, in today’s world, being a website owner is not very common, because most people use YouTube or TikTok to create content, which is totally understandable and there is nothing wrong with that.

I see writing as a way for me to connect with myself. To me, having a personal blog feels very special, and I believe that anyone who has a blogging website has taken on something very interesting, different, but also challenging - challenging, at least nowadays, because this is a field that is not as popular anymore as it was in the 00s.

Creating a space like this takes also a lot of patience, especially if you’re doing everything on your own and have no idea what you’re doing at first.

It took me a year and a half to build this website. Looking back now, yes, it was exciting, but it was also stressful because I had to learn everything step by step and had to figure out on my own what I needed to do and how to make the website work properly.

When the website was finally finished, there was no better feeling. I was simply happy knowing that I finally had my own little space where I could share my energy and connect with different people.

But the challenging part wasn’t just building the website. I would actually say that what came after was even harder.

I knew what I wanted to share, and I still do. But because I never wanted this website to be full of blogs like “Poetry” or “5 Red Flags You Should Never Ignore,” writing has always been a little different for me.

I only write when a certain feeling comes to me. That feeling becomes the reason behind the blog, but turning emotions into words is much harder than it seems.

I write about something only when I feel deeply connected to it. When a topic stays on my mind and I can’t stop thinking about it, that’s when I know it’s time to write.

Sometimes I feel so much and want to say so many things that I end up not knowing how to say any of them, which makes me put everything aside for a while.

That was actually the reason why the website went quiet for some time and why I wasn’t active.

I was putting pressure on myself because I couldn’t express what I wanted to say, and at the same time, I felt guilty for not being able to continue what I had started for weeks.

Fortunately, I found my way back on track and came up with a way to make the whole process easier. Blogs like “In My Room,” “The Summer Terrace,” and “Rainy Days” felt easier to write tho, because they come from my own memories.

Right now, I would say the website is in its “nostalgic era,” and somehow that feels right. The more I think about it, the more I realize I can’t invite you into my world without first showing you what it looked like before. Somehow, that happened naturally.

So yeah, this is honestly how it is for me. Sometimes there are obstacles, but when you really want something to happen, you always find a way - even if it means doing things a little differently.

You just have to be brave and have strong willpower.

With love,

Chrissy